The following note is in relation to “A Poem Called Grace” and discusses the spoken word with scripture references (all NIV translation) and the practical teachings. Overcoming sin is ultimately impossible. Being Christian is not hard; it is impossible by our own means. We become Christians and live life fully because of God’s work in our hearts; not our own. But, “Jesus answered, ‘I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.'” John 14:6. It is only by knowing Him and developing a relationship with Him that we can truly overcome things in our heart. That’s the Grace of God! The grace of God sets us free from sin. The noted passages below illustrate to us that our desires that aren’t brought before God (or in submission to) are our own empty destruction. Surrender is the only way to get what our heart truly deserves, and opens the way to transformation through God’s kindness.
Poem: “Convicted of the addiction of making selfish decisions corrupted my vision and made me vulnerable.”
We are vulnerable in knowing wrong. How can conviction make you vulnerable? The answer: because as humans, we have insecurities that cause us to reject ourself for a moment in order to transform. It is in this transformation that often a loss of identity and a loss of way can happen. We are often blind because all we can see is what NOT to do and how NOT to think. We don’t know a different way. We are just convicted of it. And so we are: frozen, stuck, looking into anxiety – vulnerable.
The most critical points of vulnerability are when:
– Confronting our selfishness
– Confronting our inherent desires
– Denying our own temporary happiness
– Struggling to rejoice in sacrifice
– Begging to feel joy and gratification
– Holding on to an attitude and mindset of loss instead of empowerment
In all these things, we are convicted so much that it makes us weak. For those of you who don’t know the difference between conviction and condemnation, you will feel additional burden.
We want to cry out. We want to be given an answer. We are desperate. We want belonging. We want love. We want to be granted release from the bondage of withholding desires to follow the impulses of your heart. We think we know better. But in withholding all of that by conviction of selfishness…we struggle. It is a constant struggle between trusting ourselves and trusting and waiting on God. It is a war. We fight with temptation because we can rationalize that even just a little taste isn’t harmful when we hold yourself apart from the rest. It is in this that we are weak. We are vulnerable. We can try and strive for the end result, but without transformation of the heart we will forever wrestle until we are destroyed.
We need truth. We need direction. We need approval. We need release. We need to be saved from this choice. In God we can find all these things. We need to experience His Love. We need to rely not on ourselves, but in God alone. The following scriptures are keys that can free us, and put our hope in Jesus and set us to rest:
“Your soul finds rest in God alone.” Psalm 62:1
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers, when ever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking in anything.” James 1:2-4
Jesus tells us, “I have told you these things, so that in me, you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
Meditate on these scriptures. Perhaps you will begin to smile when you see your selfishness for what it is. You can begin to put your whole identity in God. Then you can let go, put yourself last, seek others’ well-being first, and learn to accept love rather than take short-lived satisfaction. You must learn to surrender and be with God rather than your desires